Just When I had Given Up Hope

Well, I can say I do believe in miracles.  I just found out this week that I am pregnant again!  My doctor had just referred me out to a more intensive infertility program to begin hormone therapy with insemination.  I had gone through four rounds of clomid with insemination.  Whew!  I feel relieved...Yet, I am also very scared now...Not sure how long this one will last...I feel very jaded from the three previous consecutive miscarriages.  Yet, I want to be excited and plan...Such mixed emotions! 

New Beginnings

It's been a very long time since I have written. I just hadn't been inspired. So, I am back! It seems with the new year well under way, life seems a bit more hopeful and bright. Decided to take a break for awhile from the baby thing. It's been nice not having to go through procedures and the roller coaster ride of emotions. Less stress and more relaxation in that area!!! I've also taken up tennis again. MAN, I MISSED PLAYING TENNIS!!! It's been great taking a class from a certified instructor and learning the correct techniques. My instuctor says I may be able to join the leagues during the spring. It would be great to compete!!!! I'm also trying to build up my private practice ventures. With this economy, it's been slow to start but now i'm in the midst of completing the early stages of beginning the business. Lets see...what else....well, my family is healthy. It was scary with my dad there for awhile. Thank God he recovered well from quadruple bypass surgery and is almost back to his old self. I can say overall, life is great in the area of marriage, family, and friends.

Yet, there are still underlying desires and worries that are there. Namely, wanting a child of my own and having a better job. It seems I am learning a great deal about patience and purpose. I think I have learned enough!!!!!